Hidden

All these things
I don't want you to see
my broken self
how it got that way - I am trying to decipher
my unreasonable desires - who could fulfill?

Surprisingly, you wanted to see
you thought you wanted to witness
my trembling
to hear me cry out

Now you've been as close
as I can let you come
to the scene of the devastation
you are the fuse
settling off unending waves
of tendre crying out
and tremblings

each retreat
each separation
each declined invitation
holds within it the possibility
of the end
and I hold back my screams
and stifle my desire
to beg for all of you
to bind you and keep you
captive in our own secret space
hidden
for me alone