How Long?

I am alarmed at the speed
with which you breach
my barriers
with practiced ease you topple any
carefully constructed resolve
that I attempt to erect

Yet
I am the enemy
at the gates
gleefully ignorantly
handing over the keys
to my own defeat
my penned words are traitors to my cause
revealing the long concealed tunnel
to my core

I fear the version of me
you masterfully unveil
sweeping away all my reserve
who is this woman?
who fearlessly grasps
the very thing she desires
holding it to herself
for as long as she may
but still she asks
how long will it last?