My own private hell

Dark and dank

lonely it is, here

as I try to figure me

figure you

Here everything is wrong

everything I do

and think and say

Add to that 

everything

you say

It's all pointed

at making me feel

shitty

Shitty because

I devalue myself

because I let you

devalue me

because I let you see the real me

let you see how I see

what I don't want to see

or be

I'm poor

neglected dejected

and outcast

I am at the same time

sick of my wallowing in this

pity pit

Can someone rescue

redeem me

Dare I ask for more that that

Dare I ask to be the cherished jewel

Precious

Feeling - somehow

the cosmic forces

will put me in my place

for daring to aspire